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The plan was to go to Germany to reboot my brain. I was supposed to get over my emo phase, go back to school, do some serious socialization. The plan was to go to a lot of parties, meet a lot of girls, date as many as possible on a casual basis, have fun.

I never planned to planned to be in a relationship. I never planned to fall in love. Things didn't go as planned.

I have never been so happy.

What I Wanna Do

I have a dream. I want to get one of those big moonbounce things kids jump around in, some black lights, a ridiculously loud sound system, and the most tooth-enamel destroyingly happy dance music known to man. What happens next may not be terribly dignified, but good luck finding a more entertaining exercise.

Plus you know I play DDR, if I was seriously worried about not looking like a total spaz I'd probably find another hobby amirite?

(Moonbounce image used under Creative Commons license from Flickr user Cayusa.)

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My priorities are so different from what I thought they'd be.

Many things I thought I needed, I don't even want any more.

Things I thought I didn't ever want, and even wanting them be trivial, turn out to be the most important in the world to me now.

If only I had known it sooner.

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I spent most of the day writing an email.

I put down a lot of words, but most of them didn't say anything. I didn't realize this until I tried to form a conclusion, and realized that there was none.

I'll probably never send it.

I think I was just writing to myself anyway. I'm content for now.

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I know this won't last forever.

Today though, I can bury my apprehension of the crash in the euphoria of the high.

And who knows? I've been wrong before.

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I need a panacea. I need a catholicon. I need a magic wand. I need a way to fix all the broken little people in the world. Because I'm not strong enough, I'm not smart enough, I'm not good enough to do it.

And I can't go on knowing they're broken.

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...and inside my head a voice keeps screaming "this isn't fair", as if appealing to some higher authority that doesn't exist, demanding the world be made flat and simple, cold hard facts be rolled back to save me from the harsh unforgiving blandness of day-to-day life in this insipid rat-race...

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Played WoW last night for the first time in about three months... so much interesting stuff was going on In Real Life I nearly forgot about that game. To be fair, life is still pretty busy, just less interesting. Tough choice coming up, and though I'm pretty sure I know what I'm gonna do, I still feel paralyzed by indecision.

Well, I won't let WoW take up too much time. I'll play once or twice a week, tops. Maybe PvP a little bit, see what kind of gear I can get. Meh.

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Probably the only thing I miss more than her is having a reason to wake up in the morning. I need new motivation. And I will find it. Promise.

But hey, cheer up emo kid, watch this video (thanks atomx).